Where in the world...?

I have neglected this blog for a while as I went through a bunch of changes in my life.  My husband and I have been trying to conceive for almost a year now.  In early March I was very excited by a positive pregnancy test. A couple of weeks later I was devastated to find that there was not any embryonic development, no amniotic sac.  Just a bunch of pregnancy hormones and placental tissue growing.  Weird, and sad.

I'd been contemplating quitting Weight Watchers for a few months and the minute I thought I was pregnant I quit.  I continued to write down what I was eating and I bought a diet journal.  I didn't want to gain crazy weight just because I was pregnant.  When I found out that I wasn't really pregnant I kind of gave up monitoring what I ate.  I was very sad, especially since it looked like I was going to need assistance shedding the non-baby.  I was in the middle of a TRX bootcamp I'd bought a Groupon for and I kept myself busy with that a couple of times a week even though my eating was out of control.

I'd been feeling desperate for something that would work since I'd stalled out on Weight Watchers.  TRX wasn't it.  I didn't like the body weight only approach.  Yes the reps burned, yes it was hard while I was doing the exercises, but it didn't feel like a tough workout.  I wasn't sore, I didn't see progress.  I am sure the trainer would blame the lack of progress on my lack of dedication to my diet and he is probably right, but the workout still didn't feel hardcore and extreme, which is what I was looking for.  So I went back to my "Weight Training Workouts that Work" book and got after it.  I felt better doing the heavy weight and challenging myself.  I also slowly began working the Paleo eating habits into my routine.  I can say it is a work in progress, but I am definitely making progress.  Wheat and corn are on their way out of my life.  I am just taking it as it comes and not stressing if I eat popcorn or a roll every now and then.  I have to make my eating habits something that I can do forever and I don't know that I can say, "I will never eat popcorn again"  that would be a LIE.

Two weekends after the day surgery to remove the stuff invading my uterus I did the Warrior Dash.  I LOVED IT!  Best fun ever!  The obstacles are all really mental challenges, so I just had a couple of spots trip me up.  I hate heights, but I love climbing things.  So going up and down is no problem unless it is something like the fireman's pole (had a moment of WTF at the top of that one) or the A Frame with 10 foot of wall with no hold on it.  You have to just slide down to get off of it.  The hard part for me was the running.  I am no runner.  I can walk forever, but run? HAHAHAHA!  All the same I made good time and even though I am at the old end of my age group (30-39) I finished in the top third of participants for that group (#249 of 846 total).   I am really proud of that since my goal was to finish and my plan was to walk the whole thing.  I went with my cousin and she wanted to run, so I ran as much as I could.  Thankfully I have some endurance or I'd have died!!!

So I have had some ups and downs and I have really struggled with my eating.  Since I quit WW I have only gained 0.6oz.  So I think I am going to be ok.  Since "abs are made in the kitchen" the clean eating I have been doing for the last couple of weeks has really helped.  I am about to embark on a new adventure and I promise to write about it.  I am finally over my funky slump.